Mama didn’t want a wake
But I didn’t know until after the fact
Her funeral was beautiful
She would have loved
I was unhappy with the wake
But I didn’t like how it was done
I don’t think she would have liked it either;
I hope she forgives me.
If it wasn’t for her I’d be dead or homeless
Mama forgive me for being so weak
You were and remain my heart.
Mama didn’t go to my father’s wake
Or his funeral
But she was there for him in the end.
I didn’t understand her pain until now
I wish I could take back the mean things that I said to her.
I didn’t inherit her kindness
But I did get her love.
When I started to lose her I was desperate to retrace my steps;
Get back to her side,
She told me it wouldn’t be the end.
There was no remedy
No one could help
It was already too late
I miss her so.